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I cannot remember a time when I didn't want to dress up. I lived in a VERY male household. I had two brothers and no sisters. My dad was away from home most of the time, so maybe I identified too much with my mother. On the other hand, maybe there is a biological explanation. In any event, I started to crossdress as soon as I knew that there was a difference between boys and girls.
My favorite book when I was a kid was The Marvelous Land
of Oz, in which it is revealed that our young hero, Tip, is actually Princess
Ozma in disguise. Glinda the Good Witch transforms him back into her at
the end of the book. I always wanted to be Princess Ozma.
This part of my bio used to read like this:
"Like most crossdressers, I hid my desires as if my life depended on it when I was a teen. I was also wrestling with the problem of sexual preferrence, which I have never really resolved to my own satisfaction (I am bisexual, and have only really been comfortable with it for the last few years).
I have been out of the closet for a couple of years now. I haven't told my family about it, but they don't need to know, really, since they all live far away from me. I haven't taken hormones (yet) or undergone any surgical procedures to feminize myself (yet), but I can forsee doing both in the near future. I have always viewed gender as a spectrum rather than as an absolute. It is entirely possible to encompass several gender identities in one person, I think, although most people will go to any lengths to have only one. I feel bad for those folks. They don't have much fun in life. Put another way: I don't like to have the same thing for dinner every night, either.
Everyone who knows me knows about Christianne, and the process of telling everyone was surprisingly easy. Scary, but easy. The best thing about coming out of the closet, as the saying goes, is that all of my female friends now give me clothes."
A lot has changed since I wrote that. First off, I've arrived
at the conclusion that I am a transsexual. Part of me has always known this,
but I've never been willing to fully acknowledge the fact until very recently.
When I realized what I wanted to do, I sought professional help. I've been seeng
a therapist who specializes in gender identity, and she concurs with my assesment.
I've been taking baby steps towards a full transition. I've been modifying my
body in small ways--mainly permanent hair removal--but I'm about to start changing
it in major ways. At this writing, I'm on the verge of beginning hormone therapy.
I fully intend to undergo gender reassignment surgery when I qualify (and when
I can afford it). I guess I've gone a bit beyond recreational crossdressing
here.
As for D/S play? I met my current girlfriend through the
lifestyle, but I'm not really a lifestyler, per se. It's fun, but it's
more of a hobby for me.
It wasn't always so rosy. The first girlfriend I ever
told freaked out. She had a streak of homophobia a mile wide, which surprised
the hell out of me. It was ugly. I went into a deep depression after that
experience. I dated mostly men for a while after that, but gay men aren't
terribly accepting of transgenderism, either. This period only served to
demonstrate that I am more attracted to women, even though men are more
skilled in bed.
Age: I'm as old as my toes and slightly older than my teeth.
Height: 5'6"
Weight: Yeah, right!
Bra Size: 38 C (used to be a D cup, but I've scaled back lately in the interests of reality)
Occupation: graphic designer
Favorite movie: Depends on what day of the week it is (at this writing it's Touch of Evil)
Favorite music: Punk (The Clash, The Ramones, The Sex Pistols, Television, X), Post-Punk (Talking Heads, Elvis Costello, REM, PJ Harvey, Madder Rose, Sleater Kinney), Memphis Soul (Sam & Dave, Otis Redding, Wilson Pickett, Booker T and the MGs), Pop (Blondie, Katrina and the Waves, The Bangles, En Vogue), and many others...Here's a fun playlist to give you an idea of what sort of music I like:
Favorite writers: William Shakespeare, William Faulkner, Joseph Conrad, Shirley Jackson, Flannery O'Connor, Cormac McCarthy, James Agee, Raymond Chandler, Cornell Woolrich, Jim Thompson, Dan Simmons, Theodore Sturgeon, Richard Matheson, John Collier, Elmore Leonard, Saki, James Thurber...and so on.
In an interview in 1962, shortly before his death, William Faulkner was asked what he was reading. His answer: "Charles Dickens and The Bible. At my age, I only have time for the good stuff.".
Favorite Artists: Albrecht Durer, Jan Vermeer, Caspar
David Freidrich, John Singer Sargent, Thomas Eakins, Edward Hopper, Joseph
Turner, John Constable, William Hogarth, Goya, Velasquez, Daumier, Gustav
Klimt, Robert Rauschenberg, Jasper Johns, Robert Arneson, Klaes Oldenberg,
Chuck Close, Christo, Robert Crumb, Art Spiegelman, Harvey Kurtzman, Will
Eisner..and so on.